cope
June 29, 2008
when the pain is just too much
when the tears just wont stop
when silence never works
and your screams turned into
futile words…
how can you ever cope?
abyss
June 27, 2008
pull me out of this abyss
where you promised me infinity,
where you blinded me by forever
and showed me mirage
of security.
lost focus by your
love visage,
you left me without a word,
then shut me into the dark.
juicing out my very faith
planting seeds to dream
of you while wide awake.
living within my very senses
keep me hanging and defenseless.
take me out of this abyss
put an end to this lovely taboo,
crucify me if you want,
then leave me gasping for air
if you might…
if that would mean tranquility
and peace…
then…
pull me out of this abyss.
if
June 21, 2008
if i could melt you
so I’d know your heart’s
still breathing.
i would.
if i could open your eyes
then maybe, soon
you’d realize the beauty
of this roller coaster ride.
if i could walk for you,
I’d take you hundred miles
then you’d be able to feel
the wonders of being
in the place you
always dream.
if i could live in your skin,
be the blood that’s
rushing and flowing
in your very veins,
so you’d know for sure
that i would want
nothing but being with you…
living for and into you.
i would.
wishful thinking…
June 20, 2008
i am tired
of hearing all your bull.
i am gagged,
i sometimes vomit
on my mouth
just with the thought of
still seeing you around.
i wish i can see your back,
then i wont be hearing
from you again,
you are, so far
my biggest regret.
what is it there
to understand?
what is it there to
ask for another Nth chance?
i am tired, so i left.
but i guess, you
really know which path
you must take.
you still found me,
and you’re still here.
i’ll be damned if i
ever try walking away
again.
wish you can figure out,
nothing’s left for the
both of us.
wish you can just leave…
wish I’ll have my
long deserved peace.
cliff hanger
June 18, 2008
i guess it is not the night
i should be blaming,
neither the sun
with it’s glorious fun.
i shouldn’t have
asked you
since, that happened
a long time ago.
but i cannot place myself
as the sole recipient
of the grudges
of the ache.
it takes two to tango,
isn’t it?
’twas my idea,
that i cannot deny,
but why looked at me
with half agony,
half smile?
saw glint of relief,
then shaded by pain,
then anger,
must i put you
as the one to blame?
when did caress
turned into mere touch?
where did all the whispers
gone into something
utterly whine?
i still see you,
in everybody’s eyes.
u can still send me shivers
without your presence.
you still crushes
every defense i put up
simply by
walking using other
people’s heart.
im stuck in here,
yet moving effortlessly.
i am still aching
without having to bleed.
im still scarred
and it doesn’t look good.
see, maybe,
i am still hanging
to the cliff
i, myself made.