Longest hour of my LIFE.
January 9, 2009
That hour started when the phone rang during sixth period English. The phone rang, and I was called into the office. Whenever anybody gets called into the office, you can hear the whole class whispering about what they think that person might have done. Nobody seems to ever think that just maybe they aren’t in trouble. That was my case. I walked the long way to the office to take my time, dreading going back to that class and continuing on with The Great Gatsby. It was a cold day and the sky looked like the ash thats left over after a fire. I entered the office curiously, but to my disappointment all I was called in for was for the annual Blood Drive I had signed up for months ago. But then again I was thrilled, because it meant no going back to class. I grabbed my slip and headed towards the cafeteria where the event was taking place. When I entered the smell of blood crawled up my nose. It smelled like rust, and it made me light headed. To be honest I hate blood and giving blood, but its for a good cause, thats enough for me. I signed in my name and sat down in the chair. They recorded my blood pressure and made the chair go down, so that I was in a laying down position. Before I knew it, the needle was stuck in and sucking away at my blood. The minutes passed and the bag filled. I left the classroom towards the office at 3:01 PM, it was now 3:20 PM, time was going by slowly, and it wasn’t in a good way. I constantly looked up at the clock and every time only one minute had passed prior to the last. Was it me or was the bag filling up less then before? It was me. 3:50 PM, finally. The same nurse as before was by my side taking the needle out and wrapping my arm in a pink bandaid, and cutting out a heart shape with another bandaid and placing it on the bandaid where the needle had been sunk in. I had about 5 stickers that said “I DONATED!” on them, I don’t even know how they got on me, but there they were sucking onto the fabric of my shirt. I signed off and they thanked me, and I was done. It was exactly 4:00 Pm and I was headed home. The longest hour of my life had just passed, and it wasn’t the best hour. Lets just say I rather have been reading The Great Gatsby.
2009 Hope
January 5, 2009
I’m always too late, I see the train leaving. I’m always laughing when its not cool to smile. I’m always aiming but somehow keep missing. I’m always driving, forget where I’m going, should have turned left but I had other stuff on my mind. I am arriving as everyones leaving.
New Year, new start I always like to say :) New Years is like a fresh start. Not a NEW START, but just a fresh one. I am excited for this new years even though, I have a feeling the world will be struggling with it. Hopefully Obama fixes stuff up a little bit, and this economic/financial crisis softens up a bit. Its scary this stuff is happening as I’m getting older, because I don’t want it to always be like this, or end in some horrible way. We joked about the second Great Depression was on its way, but when I honestly think about it, thats just scary. My life is starting, and I want good stuff ahead, don’t want stuff getting uglier day by day. The ball has dropped, lets make 2009 the year of fixing and bettering, or in reality lets at least be hopeful.
Freeze
December 24, 2008
Hold your pose, its a perfect picture, just so I can remember how you’re looking tonight. Freeze a moment, it’s never been better. It wont last forever. Tonight we’ll deny that time is passing us by. Keep the peace, bygones be gone. Under here, we’re not so soft forgiving the feelings that we put on for so long.
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Keep it ALL.
December 14, 2008
Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody i’ve ever known.
I am Téa.
December 13, 2008
I’m Téa. I need something different, I’m ready for a change.
This generation of myspace whores is the future. You should be scared, I sure am. The main DIFFERENCE bettwen YOU and ME is that I have morals, and you have genital herpes. I’m not good with words. I don’t make good first impressions and I HATE saying goodbye. I used to not know what I wanted, until recently. I get bored easily, and I laugh a lot. At times I can be very outgoing, at others I get too shy, and I get mad at myself over it. I’m a very “artsy” type of person, I love to dance, and photography is a part of my everyday life. I believe that everything happens for a reason.People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I’m young, yet aware. I regret nothing. I’ve got a life that I’m more than pleased with, but I live knowing the future holds disappointments. I’ve got a strong opinion, and an easy point of view. You were givien the same chance to live, so live it the way you choose to.
Taking me Over.
November 20, 2008
I hate how moments seem perfect and you feel so happy that its like that, and then the next day its like it never happened, like you never even had that talk. But then again stupid me for thinking it would stay that way right? I mean it is a MOMENT after all, its gone in a second. You’re trying to teach me stuff, you don’t even know that you’re pushing me away. Take time to realize that, because I’ve made you WORTH it everday, every second and I have always been on your side. Whos on my side? At frist I felt like I had someone there for me, now I just feel like you look for my wrongs and you wont even help me.
Thank You.
Love, Tea
P.S. I can’t spell it out for you, but if you just realized what I just realized, then we’d be perfect for each other, and then we won’t ever have to wonder if we missed out on each other. Just meet me halfway, and it will be the same for you.
Time after Time.
November 13, 2008
Because I know you’re too good to be true I must have done something good to meet you. You wrote my name across your hand, when I freak you understand there is not a thing you miss and I could get used to this. With you it all comes naturally I’ve lost the reflex to resist..I could get used to this. And it’s because you listen to me when I’m depressed…It doesn’t seem to make you like me less.
Thanks VERONICAS <3
Addicting
November 13, 2008
Sunflower seeds are addicting! :/ Like you literally can’t stop eating them, and then I regret it because the salt eats away at your lips and makes them sore. SUNFLOWER kernels are the solution, not as fun because you don’t pop them open but hey at least they don’t burn your mouth :) Hmm, so today the weather was pretty gross, A LOT of windd totally messed up my hair :/ But its ok that messy style isn’t always bad ;) Oh I’m excited this cuteeeee nail salon opened right across the street replacing that ugly run down dry cleaning space! It’s nice and makes the area where the shop opened look nicer, finally something pleasant to look at when I drive past it on my way to school. AND I’m totally craving YOGURTLAND right now, like MEGA CRAVING! :) Armin introduced me to that place this one time when we went to the mall, and its amazing. Really good at such a great price plus its healthier then ice cream :) 2738003796_2a0acb6c5f
The little things.
November 12, 2008
Don’t just leave me hanging on.
Simple
November 12, 2008
Someone asked me about him because I talk about him a lot, so here we go :)
My boyfriend, my love, my best friend :) ARMIN.. Me and him met randomly one night, and we just continued to talk. He was interesting and caught my attention…and from that night here we are this night :) We have been together for 1 year and 7 months it has been a rough and amazing time, I look forward to the future with him, he makes me laugh like nobody else and he always knows how to make me smile.
10050811051 He is my best friend :) I love you! His birthday is in 83 days, I’m excited. HAPPY ALMOST 20TH BABE! And our 2 years is on April 20th :) I love you bearr.
